See, I feel guilty because Everett is our one and only. Just like we cannot imagine our lives without him, it is hard for me to imagine our lives with another little one that will need our attention too--in turn taking some of that from Everett. It just feels like it will be unfair to my sweet boy to take some attention away from him and put it on someone else. I know when he is older he will LOVE that sibling relationship, but what about now when he doesn't quite get it. Will he wonder if we don't love him as much? Will he feel forgotten? Will he feel ignored? Will he feel second place?
Just like it was a blessing to bring Everett into our lives, it will be an incredible blessing to have more little ones to call our own! However, I can't help but think of the guilt ridden what-ifs and wonder how it will affect my sweet boy. Will these thoughts deter me from having more kids? No. Do they make me a little emotional and cray cray? Yes!
For those whom have multiple or are planning to have multiple children, have you every had these thoughts? --- if so, how did you overcome them and how did it change your relationship with your firstborn?