I wont give up.

Jason Mraz has a way with words....and his voice. Mmmmm.

Ahem.....moving on, I think he puts it nicely in his newest song.


"I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up....

'Cause even the stars they burn
Some even fall to the earth
We've got a lot to learn
God knows we're worth it
No, I won't give up"

Curtis and I are coming up on 5 years of wedded-ness ( it's a new word--use it) this Friday the 9th of March.

Can I be honest?

Its. Been. Hard.

Some days it is really hard to love the person I wake up next to.....and some days it's hard not to.
Some days I wonder if we'll 'make it'.....and some I feel like when we work together we can take on the world.
Some days we mesh.....and some we don't.

I wish I could say that we have never used the "D" word in our marriage.  But we have.  I regret it every time and I know he does too.  That is the farthest thing from what our hearts ever want.

What have we learned in 5 years?

To pick our battles.
To find out what our love languages are and do them.  Often.
Be the best forgiver you can be (Curtis is great at this, I am not.) In, turn be the best at saying you're sorry.
We have learned that we are two very imperfect and sinful human beings with selfish and self-centered actions.

In addition, if nothing else in common ( like for real, we are very opposite) we have committed our vows and commitment to each other under God.  And that means something.

It means our hard days will need to be endured.
It means we will need to forfeit our self-centered ways and live to serve each other.
It means that in order to make us work as a unit, we need to be individually and jointly focused on Jesus. 

Not always easy.  But when we do it, it's as God intended and that is perfection.

Curtis:

These past five years have been a huge learning experience and I cannot believe how much we have grown together through trials and some unfavorable circumstances---as well as the best thing ever---Everett.

Oh that boy.  He can change tension into laughter and helps us to realize how sill arguing is.

I love you and everything most things about you---all besides the fact that you sometimes fart under the sheets and give me birthday cards when it's not my birthday.  But that was kinda cute :)

It's not been easy, and I anticipate that it never will be.  But you are so worth it.   You hear that?  You are worth it and I love you.  You make me laugh---hard--and I have never met a more driven person than you.  You were driven to get me, and you did! :) I love watching you and your interactions with Everett and how he lights up when he sees you.  I love us and that we are at the 5 year mark!

I am looking forward to each new day with you and Everett and couldn't have been blessed with a better man to call my teammate and father of my child.

I won't give up on us.

Happy 5th Anniversary!